Gospel: Mk 2:13-17
Once again he went out along the
sea. All the crowd came to him and he taught them. As he passed by, he saw
Levi, son of Alpheus , sitting at the customs
post. He said to him, “Follow me.” And he got up and followed him. While he was
at table in his house, many tax collectors and sinners sat with Jesus and his
disciples; for there were many who followed him. Some scribes who were
Pharisees saw that he was eating with sinners and tax collectors and said to
his disciples, “Why does he eat with tax collectors and sinners?” Jesus heard
this and said to them [that], “Those who are well do not need a physician, but
the sick do. I did not come to call the righteous but sinners.”
After reading the gospel, I came to reflect on the life of Levi. When
Jesus called Levi to follow Him, he immediately got up and followed. And
when they went to his house, some tax collectors followed and ate with
them.
As I was reflecting, I began to remember my journey with the Lord.
During my youth camp, way back 2006, I have felt that the Lord is already
calling me to follow Him. But then, I did not respond immediately to his call.
When I had my first Regional Youth Conference in Guiuan, Eastern
Samar, that was the time when I said “yes!” to him. When I said
“yes!”, I did not know what’s ahead of me. And when I entered college,
my journey with the Lord had become more meaningful. I then began to know Him
more and was able to discover His great plan for me. He really has a great plan
for me and part of that plan is to become a shepherd to his flock. But as I
continued my journey with the Lord, it came to a point that I felt unworthy of
the great things that He has given me. I became a failure.
In the past months, that feeling of unworthiness kept on haunting me.
And I was not able to cheer myself up or even convince myself to move forward.
I became so fearful to take the first step and start my journey with the Lord
again. But as I was reflecting on the gospel, I recalled what Fr. Chris told
me, “Every time you feel unworthy of what God has given you, remind yourself that
NOBODY’s even WORTHY ENOUGH.” He was right and Jesus even said that “Those who
are well do not need a physician, but the sick do. I did not come to call the
righteous but sinners.” In the gospel, Levi was called by Jesus to follow him
even if he is a sinner and even some tax collectors followed him and ate with
him.
I came to realize, I really am a sinner but still Jesus is calling
me to follow Him. When I said “yes!” to him, it will be a “yes!” forever. And
though I have failed, Jesus is telling me now to be like Levi who followed him
immediately despite of his sinfulness and even brought other tax collectors. I
am even invited to eat with him. He already forgave me and I should forgive
myself too so that I can start my journey with Him again. And as I follow Him, He even blesses me more; He is now encouraging me to call fellow sinners as well.
We are all sinners and
Jesus is calling each of us to follow Him. He came to save sinners.
Acknowledge
that you are a sinner and listen to your heart. He is already calling you. Will
you follow him?
“Those who are well do not need a physician, but the sick do. I did not
come to call the righteous but sinners.”
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